Ohhh let me tell you ’bout my Jesus!!
First a little back story on how I came to connect with this song: I have mentioned my worship team at church before in a previous blog, but our drummer is so special to us. He is constantly finding new and wonderful songs for us to rock. This song is one of them. He had me play it from the sound system one day prior to service and told me he thought I would do a great job with it.
Little did he know just how special this song would come to be for me.
I have always felt a connection between this song and my grief journey. It’s one of those songs that I know Marriah would have loved, but there was always something else.
I tear up when singing it and have even cried while singing it, so I knew that there was something else.
Come to find out that there was a MAJOR reason that I felt this song so deeply and it all has to do with the reason that the singer/songwriter, Anne Wilson, came to be a worship artist as well as the reason behind her call to pen this particular song with her co-writers.
Anne lost her brother in 2017 at the age of 23 in a car accident.
I have chills and tears in my eyes just thinking about the parallels between us losing Marriah.
For those that don’t know and need a little more information…we lost Marriah in February of 2017 at the age of 23 in a car accident.
They say that the Lord works in mysterious ways, but wow!! Ricochet (my drummer) was definitely His messenger for this one.
I connected to the song because it came from a deep place of heart break, a place grief.
But it also came from a place of healing.
I don’t say “healing” in the sense that Anne doesn’t still grieve the loss of her brother. I know that I dang sure still grieve Marriah on a daily basis.
Physical healing (broken bones, cuts, bruises, etc.) is on a different spectrum than emotional healing.
My grief healing happens constantly and is ever changing. Some days I am more healed than others.
My heart is going to always bleed from the loss of her. I can’t speak for Anne, but I imagine that she will always feel the loss of her brother.
She said that she felt her healing start at his funeral while singing “What a Beautiful Name”.
I honestly couldn’t tell you when my true healing started, but I can tell you this…this song, my connection to it, and every opportunity that I get to sing it….THAT is true healing for me.
It may be only few moments of my journey, but they are full of healing for my grief and my faith crisis.
I will never be “cured” of this grief.
My family will never be “cured” of the pain.
But we can HEAL.
That’s what this song is about. Here are some excerpts:
“Are you past the point of weary?
Is your burden weighin’ heavy?
Is it all too much to carry?
Let me tell you ‘bout my Jesus.
He makes a way where there ain’t no way…
Who can work it all for your good?
Let me tell you ‘bout my Jesus.
Who would care that much about me?
Let me tell you ‘bout my Jesus!!”
There has been more healing recently in my family in regards to this loss. That’s not my story to tell, but it brought a tear to my eye.
LET ME TELL YOU ‘BOUT MY JESUS!
Love you always. Miss you forever, Leetle Razzburry. 🌻
Credits: “My Jesus”
Artist: Anne Wilson
Written: Anne Claire Wilson / Jeffrey Thomas Pardo / Matthew Joseph West